Random Thoughts on Life.

Hey everyone! Sorry I have been so quiet . I have had some issues preventing me from getting some of my reviews and giveaways up, but, that should be sorted out very soon. In the meantime, things have been crazy around here. Aiden has been fighting with his asthma with everything coming into bloom. His doctor has suggested we begin allergy desensatation. I guess we can potentially eliminate some of his allergens so that he can live a more normal life. How incredible would that be? For those of you who don't know, Aiden has allergies to wheat, corn, sesame, soy, peanuts, dust, cats, melons, bermuda grass, cockroaches, and about every tree and plant you can imagine. I can't remember all of his allergens off hand, but, his doctor said EACH of them is a strong enough allergy to interfere with his life. SO, we will be seeing a specialist to see where to begin. We are just around the corner from my daughter's graduation, We just sent her off to her senior prom, and she just got her first serious boyfriend. I am proud of her and scared a little of the fact that she is becoming of age to make her own decisions. I don't know how to let go and trust she is ready to be on her own if she all of a sudden were to decide to move out. I have so many mommy worries over her right now. I am also excited to be planning her graduation party. I think I use that to distract me from the fact that she is almost an adult. Mother's Day weekend was spent bringing my step son Cody to the National Football Camp tryouts! It was amazing to watch him. He is so smooth and so fast and he is all around a great kid. He was the third fastest kid! Now we wait 1-3 weeks to see if he receives an invite. How nerve wracking! In the middle of all of this, I have lost a couple of friends to suicide. I can't tell you how my heart aches. It is not as if they didn't reach out, they did . Both had a history of depression that they just could not get a handle on. This has me thinking about life in general. There seems to be an unusual amount of sad and negative energy in the world right now. People are angry and mean and aggressive. It's hard to live in a world like that when you have such a tender loving soul. I wish I could go back in time and somehow show them that love conquers all. Hold their hand, give them a hug, and let them know they are not alone. And, now, I feel the need more than ever to try to do that in one way or another with all of you. The whole world works as one unit to create this amazing eco system. We are all made of the same cells. The trees, water, earth, and flesh. Every animal knows it's place and plays an important role in keeping our planet going. We are all part of the bigger picture. We are all one. But, humans seem to be the only ones who don't know their place. We have gone so far from what we were intended to be that I think a lot of us just never feel we belong. Because, we don't. We weren't made to be a working machine. Sitting at a desk or behind a machine for 8-12 hours a day. We are supposed to be part of the big picture. Planting, harvesting, hunting, gathering. The earth has provided us with everything we need to live a peaceful life and we keep pulling as far away from that as we can. I think it is the root to depression and anxiety. We have created our own prison. It causes anger, aggression, conflict, and war. We were supposed to breath in the fresh air and embrace the natural beauty of this planet, but, instead we spend all of our time living for paper. PAPER. Seriously, how sad is that? When paper is more important than feeling the sand between your toes, watching the sun set and rise, enjoying the chatter of your toddler because you just don't have time. But, honestly, it's all we have is time. We don't know how much, but, we all have time. We have to decide how we spend the time. And, yes, it is a decision. I just don't think people realize it's a choice. Many don't even realize they have been imprisoned since birth to a system destroying everything we need to truly live. I think our whole world needs a giant hug right now.